Dont you just hate that feeling?

Ugg, sometimes you feel, or at least i do, that horrible gut wrenching feeling where if the right person said the wrong thing you would more than explode. Explode can happen from any pent up emotion, this is so much more. I wrote about it but it would reveal to much of the circumstance to allow me to post it though i wish i could share it with someone. I am failing at trying to explain how pure rage can feel but it happened to me this weekend.

All tole the week off from school was amazing, i got to see a good friend in Ohio, and see my sister which i have not seen in far too long, as well as my nephews which are so cool. I had a lot of fun with friends caught up with family and enjoyed thanksgiving as well as got some work done. And I'm not going to say this over shadowed this whole awesome week because it didn't but it was horrible its one of those things where you feel so helpless and beg and cry out for answers to your stupid childish why answers and get nothing in response. Its painful though it has to be more painful for the person that this happened to and i hate it.

But I have decided to trust god as i know we should, and have decided to help in anyway i can, not by any means trying to fix it with my own strength because that is impossible but trusting god and seeking god to work in this event. the verse Romans 8:28 of course has to come to mind and i believe it god does have a plan god loves us and something good will come of it. But then this morning i read in psalms 30 of the message version these beautiful words, "God, my God, I yelled for help and you put me together. God, you pulled me out of the grave, gave me another chance at life when I was down-and-out. You did it: you changed wild lament into whirling dance; You ripped off my black mourning band and decked me with wildflowers. I'm about to burst with song; I can't keep quiet about you. God, my God, I can't thank you enough." , and i know for sure god is in control.