more awe and kids in the way

My knuckles have turned white,
from holding your hand oh so tight
Your hand in mine feels too right
My tongue has become tied,
I'm fighting back my insides
I'm dancing with an angel under pale moonlight
I'm waiting for the day when you will come to me and say
i'm here to stay so let's run away

When we're standing on the edge of it all
Take my hand let's go
There's no need to be afraid of the fall
My love will hold you

i'm drying tears I've cried,
finding love that's in your eyes
One kiss from you and I'm paralyzed
Our hearts are killing time, they're dying to be inline
The idea of being one with you is the greatest prize
We'll watch each other grow, and step into the great unknown
This is our hope, the seed we've sown

why is it that god seems to speak to me most often through song/worship
why is it also i was not blessed with any musical ability lol all jokes aside tonight has been amazing leave it to kids in the way and 2 in the morning i dunno i guess ill just start with being honest when i hear kids in the way it causes me to flash back to everytime i heard that song before, on the way to youth trips, cruising around with shane and josh rudd, on the way to prom, cruising with brandi, so many nights of cruising alone, everthing it all floods back, i absolutly love the music for that reason dont get me wrong i like the band but it has become a trade mark through out my life so much so that it has become linked to many of my memories anyways this song in particular has been my favorite for along time. but i always took it a different way then i have tonight. i always sung my heart out, over a girl... many of their songs could easily be about a girl, and from talks to dave some of their earlier stuff acually was originally about a girl and later they changed the lyrics abit because they wanted that glory to god. i dont know why but i just listened to kids in the ways new album well as much of it that was posted on myspace and then promtly ordered it off ebay, but then i listened to like all thier love"ish" songs and half way through started thinking wow what if i sang these to god instead of about a girl. Ok, the girl... anyways thats not what this is about. i then decided to go back to this song (since it was my favorite i had started with it) and see if it went along with my idea of representing feelings i share with god, i cannot express the passion that flowed through me as i screamed the lyrics to and about god.

as i pictured holding gods hand so tight my nuckles turned white i wanted to cry and i realized no earthly 'relationship" can ever come close to that... i am in uder awe that god loves me that much. why should he? i know he does and i accept that thats not what this is about im not at a crisis im simply at a place where i HAVE to dry the tears ive cried from finding love in his eyes... i cant explain it...