Do You Think God Is Boring???

Hey guys sorry i didn't post this weeekend for the most part i was real busy with my friend matt here to visit and a trip to the badlands. On another note though i did get a little time friday afternoon to talk to brandi which was cool because we were both so excited. I still am and i'm sure she and others still are but as I ran to class after hanging up at 1:10 when my class started at 1:15 across campus... i thought about something we had talked about. I didnt think about all the excitement of ideas and new opurtunities, I didnt think to thank God, what was going through my mind was dread. See we have all had these "mountain top" experiences, my dread is that this isnt really a change in the way i live my life but will fade as sparks usually do into nothing and a month from now i will wonder what happened as i find myself emersed back into the old way. So thats what ran through my head all weekend, in between blowing up things... and talking to creapy fishermen, and running over already dead roadkill.... I guess im throwing my activities in there to show you i'm not trying to tell you to become a monk/nun that doesnt have any fun, if i had to justify it which i dont think i have to, i would say that it is near immpossible to build relationships without fun and memories. anyways why is it that we get to such a good place and then fizzle out? well as god usually does he put it on the heart of our dean of chapel to preach on just that this afternoon. This isnt the first time i've thought about it in fact it is my main goal for this year at college. I have decided to set up goals periodically as i go, right now my goal is in two parts but i feel very relevant to eachother. First is that i want to find the bigger purpose, not just a call but a game plan, what is it that i need to be teaching, what is it that i feel so strongly to teach, is there something we've been missing is there some bigger goal in mind then being good enough to get into heaven and the second part is how to stay there. What i'm starting to realize (but am still seeking answers) is that maybe the message i have in my heart is to tell you you've already heard it. Maybe instead of trying to instill "youth group" principles, maybe its time to start living them. I think so many times we go into it looking for answers looking for what we need to learn, but what if we've already learned it? Is it possible that we have all the tools we need to change the world but we havent mastered trust enough to try useing them? So instead of useing them, they become cleche's of what were supposed to do and we keep saying yeah, yeah... blah, blah... i know all that teach me something new? whats wrong with that!! whats wrong with us!! we keep coming back looking for some new answers some amazing truth but instead we find the same answers and for some horrible reason that depresses us!!?? then when some person full of passion for god rubs off on us, fires us up, puts the same old message in some new form that intruges us, or sounds cool we are lit a flame. we get so gung ho for god. we want to change everything, but wait till next week and its over, we realize christianity didnt get any better, its still just as hard, its still the same old answers we have allready heard. But please catch this, IS'NT THAT THE POINT. god doesnt change, he is the same yesterday, today, and tommorrow. shouldnt hearing reacurring truths strengthen our faith, instead we get caught up in grading the speakers style, and appearence. If you keep going back looking for something better, do you know what that says to god? It says your not good enough yet, make me a better deal. I dont think i like you enough, you just dont fit in my life right now. thanks but no thanks... God you are boring! sounds alot like blasphemy to me... think im wrong? what about the passage in matthew 25 about god judging the world, how about verses 40, and 45 of that chapter to be specific. "And the king will answer them, ‘I tell you the truth, just as you did it for one of the least of these brothers or sisters of mine, you did it for me.’ " and "Then he will answer them, ‘I tell you the truth, just as you did not do it for one of the least of these, you did not do it for me.’ ". I will argue that when we call a speaker boring or ungifted, we undermime god for we must assume that god has prompted them to speak given them the gifts they need and it is his words. This doesnt mean that god gives him the style that will make him sound the coolest or make it easy for you to listen to. But it does mean that maybe its hard sometimes to hear from god, maybe sometimes it takes a little more patience and understanding to listen to what god is trying to teach us. I mean as it is overstated all the time "no one said it was going to be easy".

Back to todays message in chapel. Eh what the heck I'll post it tommorrow... lol i think i've rambled enough to spark some thot.