I am so angry so pumped so ready!??? ag i dont know what i am but i know god is bringing it together. I love you god so much you are truely all powerful. UG where to start tonight. Last night i tried to blog and couldnt last night was basically a night of despair, so many questions and no answers i wrote bits and peices and then deleted them finaly i closed the laptop and decided to head to bed. Instead i fell on my face before god(in the bathroom so my roomate wouldnt see) i didnt have any great revalation i didnt say all that much i just cried out in desparation. but nothing happend and eventually i drifted off to sleep in the middle of the whirlwind of things in my mind. the title of tonight is how i signed off to an email to brandi and it wasnt because i wanted some cool catch phrase it was becuase god is moving, god has uprooted my heart and has forced me to seek him, i feel as though my mind is not my own, i feel like i have been over taken, i see kids in my youth group and they break my heart, even kids i havent heard their stories i dunno if they see it or not but just spending time with them is destroying me and breaking my heart. we had one of those everyone is called to be a missionary chapels today and instead of scoffing as i have before my heart was torn, wait chapel was yesterday... anyways it tore me up inside. i cant explain this passion he has put in my heart, and then i read a blog by brandi that shows me how much of a burden god has put on her heart, then yesterday i wrote rob an extremely long and somehow much deeper than we have ever talked. and then he responds and i can here the desire in his words. i say revolution because to me revolution discribes something much larger than ones self, its bigger than anyone can imagine, and i say let it begin because it already has, why would three best friends hearts be burdened by the same cause if they were not on the verge of something bigger than they could ever imagine, if truth be told weve always had the burden it was just lighter because we pushed it off, it wasnt the sensible thing, the sensible thing was to save money and go to college, the sensible thing was to get good grades and go to church. but god doesnt always call us to the sensible things. i feel it i know it and i know some of you do to. i dont know what it is but it is begining and it involves all of us. i want to know if your in.
Let the revolution begin.
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